誰能明白我心裡,此刻的思緒.. Who can understand how i feel now?
i feel all
so confused.. all
so unhappy and all
so terrible. So what if i get a good result. SO WHAT. its realli terrible to part with my frens and stuff. It seems tt yesterdae i was still so decisive that i would stay in Anderson. den this morning, on my way to JJ i think through again. and then i feel so darn terrible, upset.. Tats why i didn't realli talk tt much when i was at JJ.
the feeling was so.. and yet so many kept asking me which JC to go to. *Sigh. i realli dunno what is good for me and what is not good. many encouraged me to stay in AJ cos in
some sense it is still a better JC compared to JJ. bud i think the problem
lies in me. i'm not sure tt i am fren-sick or i just can't stand the
boring environment in AJ. i think my life would become dull
sooner or later. Sometimes i just feel
left-out.
at near evening, i went back to bbss with clara to have a chat with mrs lim. i needed some advice from her. and i ended up crying. she say she understand how i feel and ask me to go to a school dat i am comfortable with and not becos i feel tt i disappoint her or wad, cos it was me who is studying and i have to choose one tt suits me well. bud i still feel tt if i choose JJ i would probably
disappoint my parents and mrs lim. I just dunno how to make the decision. bud my mum seems to wan me to go to AJ more cos many claims tt i am
Downgrading myself if i go to JJ.
I guess the biggest problem is tt i live in Bukit Panjang. everything just sux so much. and its not as convenient as last time when i go BBSS. bud i just found out it takes only 20-25mins for me to reach home from JJ. *SIGH. Why do we have to make our decision within 6days. why not a week.
Just give me a break! I am tired, i am sick. Why do we have to go through this? den 2 years later. This thing again. i dunno how i actually can overcome this barrel when i jump from Psch to Sec sch. I dun even noe a single person there at first.
till now i still don't know whether is it tt i am too stress up in Anderson. bud i seems to think tt i can handle the pressure in AJ well. at most i would just have countless Headache haha.. I know its a tough decision bud i have to make a choice tt i won't regret in future.
"Making choices, we have to prepare the consequences.." Every choice we make there is bound to be regrets. Like once i kind of regretted not appealing to Swiss cottage cos its obviously a better school. Bud frankly speaking BBSS is not realli a good sch. Bud i think the teachers there are hardworking and they hard to help us strive for our results. my friends there rawks great time as well. I miss the time we studied tgt and i miss the time we play Handball during PE as a class tgt... no doubt they are
my best memories, bud one shouldn't look back, but look forward..
tt's all.. hopefully i would come out to a decision by tmr..
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Nothing much to crap bud i am getting fine watching APCOM. though i think its not as interesting as other detective series bud i realli like ay's character inside. It makes me luff and it makes me cry for her. I just scan thru epi 9 and i find her mother's(still acted by her) story with the golden fox realli darn touching. And i would definitely prefer Her mother's character(hao qing) compared to her Ming Chu. its like the same person acting and you can feel tt its 2 different people. Very different.
at least i find her crying in this epi realli damn zhan lah!. i tink not as exaggerating as the previous few lor. haha. and when she smile while hugging tt kam hu lei.. tt scene was realli sweet and she looks realli pretty lor. hahaha. looks like she realli shine when she act in ancient series wor. love her costumes.
Their fate - its sweet bud heart-breaking at the same time. though tt guy who acted as sekzihin in TOB was so much older than ay. bud still i think the chemistry as a couple is realli good lah. So sweet can hias. bud too bad it ended tt way.
*Sigh everything is so fated.
and there is this suddden craze over ay yesterdae. as in i suddenly miss her so much and hope she come SG soon. and heard tt kevin is coming in late march! can't wait for it. :D
tt's all for today
